Day 111: D-Day…where the "D" stands for Daycare
Yesterday was Abby’s first day in daycare. She was still sick but with no fever, so we knew she had to go b/c, well really, we needed to be at our jobs. Don’t get me wrong, I loved having Tuesday off to take care of sick Abby….even though she was sick, it was still time I got to have with her. I mean on Monday, she was close to sitting, but on Tuesday she was sitting all day. It was super cool that I didn’t have to miss this milestone. She even maintained this sitting stature amidst her many coughing attacks. I mean look at how cute she is sitting…
But I digress…her first day of daycare. I thought that since I had already cried last week when I had to leave her that my crying days were gone. But when my husband put her in the car seat and I had to kiss her goodbye, I got sad all of a sudden. (My husband has the job of dropping her off b/c I have to be at work so early…though most days we will leave at the same time.) I tried holding back the tears b/c I knew he was having a hard time with this whole daycare thing too, but he asked how I was doing. I couldn’t look in his eyes, so I turned my head and choked back the words, “I guess I’m alright.” But once I got into my car to leave, I lost it. Not just small tears, but full on hysterics.
This was a time when I was grateful that my morning commute consists of going with the rush hour traffic b/c I had the time to calm down and let my puffy red eyes mellow out. And really, though, I felt like a zombie for the rest of the day…really, though, most days since I’ve been back to work I’ve had this zombie-like feeling going on…the one where I don’t even know if I’m awake whilst going through my day.
I called in just before I had to start teaching. They said she was doing great and was about to have a bottle. I then called when my planning period started around 11:15am. Abby had just woken up from a 2 hour nap, was happily eating her avocado, was about to have a bottle, and was still not phased by that awful cough of hers. Oh and of course they reminded me of how darn cute and great she is.
Again my heart sank. If you watched my vlog from Tuesday, you heard how I was kinda disappointed when Abby did so well with my mom last week b/c as a parent it feels really great when only you or your spouse can be the one to calm and comfort her…like you did this whole bonding with you child thing right. So to be honest, I was again a little disappointed. But then I thought about how my husband and I must be doing something right with her b/c she is just so darn well adjusted and can adapt to different situations and win over the hearts of anyone she is around.
As I write this, my 6th period students are working on their online English classes (they are older motivated self sufficient students who don’t need me to baby them), and I’m periodically staring at the clock, waiting for 2:50 to come…20 more minutes…where I get to go pump one last time for the day…where I get to grab stacks of papers hoping I get the right things I need to work at home (who knows if I will even have time tonight to work)….and where I get to jump in the car and race to pick Abby up. I can’t wait to look at her smiling face when I walk into the infant. B/c Abby is a super smiley baby, and it just melts my heart and can make any no good very bad day of mine turn out pretty alright.
What I do now is just look forward to those great times. B/c really, my most favorite part of our days with Abby is when we bring her into our room at night, my husband picks out some vinyl to listen to, and we play around on the bed with Abby, squealing and laughing, in preparation for bath time where she smiles and splashes away. I just think that at least no matter how sad I may be about not being with her during the day, we have this time to chill out and remember what’s the most important…having fun with our little family. (I’m trying really hard here to be optimistic and less sad about things…but you can’t rush it…)
9 Comments to “Day 111: D-Day…where the "D" stands for Daycare”
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You sound like you are doing very well – even if you don’t think you are. If it helps, Noelle loved daycare because it meant friends to play with and different toys. Even so I am still her #1 and she still needs me
Keep going momma! You’ll end up where you need to be.
First, love the picture! She is so freakin cute!
Second, hang in there! It still sucks and I’m sending e-hugs as you get through this! You are doing great
PS- This is ddearinger from the Bump, just wanted to say HI!
You are doing wonderful! It really does say something about your parenting and love for Abby since she is so great already in daycare – she knows you will come back for her and feels secure enough to be ok. I hope the rest of your day flew by so you could see her – let us know tomorrow how she reacted when you picked her up!!
Abby is doing great!!! Thats wonderful to hear!
I’m sure it’s because of you! You’re a wonderful mom, and a wonderful teacher! Keep on, keepin’ on! You’re doing fabulously!!!!
Thinking of you and that is such a sweet pic of Abby!!!
You did great!!!
She is as always, adorable.
Glad she’s feeling better too!
Awww. I’m sorry. You are doing so well. Just keep on hanging in there, it’s bound to get better. BTW, she is getting so big!e
Oh my gosh you are doing amazing. Honestly. AMAZING.
It’s tough, but hey, it’s Friday. And I can promise you that you will enjoy this weekend more than any other you have had so far with Abby!!
You are doing amazing. Keep it up Mama!