Day 206: I Think I’m on to Something
You know when you go on vacation and you let loose and don’t focus on trying to stay healthy? Well for me it’s kind of the opposite. When my family comes to visit, it’s all about the comfort foods…the familiar foods that I haven’t had in a while…Southern Fried Baked Chicken…Brisket…Corn Beef and Cabbage (yes the Jewish folks know how to get down with Irish traditions) as well as all the goodies that seem to enter my house all at once…Pastries…Cakes…Snacks…well you get the picture.
My mom and grandma have been here for nearly a week and I’ve been indulging.
Last summer when they visited I was all about these foods. I was pregnant. I couldn’t get enough brisket in my belly fast enough. And this summer, I’m about 10lbs below my pre-pregnancy weight and I feel like my subconscious wants all this weight to come back on. And what I’ve realized with this indulgence is that I’m starting to get back to those self loathing ways where I look at myself in the mirror and in pictures, and then I don’t like what I see.
Of course this got me thinking.
I wonder if when I treat my body better…and I’m not talking about super diet obsessive calorie counting…I’m talking about making sure to get some fruits and veggies and not snacking ALL DAY…I wonder if my body image perception starts to improve.
I think I’m on to something.
It’s not about focusing on losing weight, but rather focusing on taking care of myself. And it only took 30 years for me to figure this gem out. Better late than never…right?
I’ve got to take care of me and only I can be responsible for it. If others want to bring temptations around…you know those family favorites you haven’t had in years…then yes I will partake, but there is no need for me to gorge to the point of not having any energy to play with Abigail…you know food coma style. (NOTE: I have a tendency to bring temptations to the table too…just sayin’.) B/c this week gorging has led me to feeling down and I can’t have that.
So this is now what I will bring to my decision to consciously accept imperfection. I accept me for me. I love me for me. But I will not use it as an excuse to go buck wild once things are placed within sight and smells are wafting from my kitchen. I will not resist. I will taste, not give myself crap for having some, and then move on without feeling the need to lick the plate clean.
Are you with me?
NOTE: My sidebar had a case of the Mondays, went away and the blog had to be restored to get it all back…so a couple comments from this morning were lost…sorry.
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Amen! When you said “It’s not about focusing on losing weight, but rather focusing on taking care of myself…” I squealed! I am NOT the squealing type!
My thoughts exactly! I struggle with accepting me as well – but I think that finding other women that struggle with the same thing is just the kind of support that I need. We’re all in this together!
I’m cheering for you!
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I agree that you’re on to something! I’ve been trying to consciously think about WHY I’m eating certain things, how I’ll feel afterwards, and distinguish immediate gratification from what I actually want (which is to be healthy and fit.) It’s really changed the way I approach food.